Is there a chance your poorer eating choices are influenced by stress ridden, energy depleting life interactions you willingly partake in? Perhaps you partake because you strive for a misguided, self damaging image of perfection. Perhaps you partake because you're a person who does not like to say 'no'.
We often become caught in lifestyle habits which are not good for us, and if these cumulatively lead to a less healthy physique we blame the food, instead of the energy depleting life choices we contend with day to day. Life is tough, but ultimately we do have choices, even if they are difficult ones. How authentically do you live your life? Does it reflect your essence?
'Too many of us take great pains with what we ingest through our mouths, and far less with what we partake of through our ears and eyes' Brandon Sanderson, The Way of Kings